It's killing me. I'm so stressed out right now. I've been crying and getting pissed off at everything for the past week.

I love cobra like a sister, but I've started feeling like she's replacing me with another one our friends. Since I'm sorta grounded, they hang out all the time, and barely talk to me. When we walk "home" together, they usually talk to each other. I just walk behind them.

A friend of our friend died. I wasn't told until much later when Cobra was talking to my step-mom about it. Our friend never told me. She just yelled at me to shut up when I was talking to Cobra, then told Cobra.

I'm just really hurt by the fact that I'm so out of the loop, just because I only have one class with both of them. Now I'm ruining my sketchbook for Art class by writing pages about how I feel, and drawing pictures of dying animals.

Cage the Fox! Chain the Wolf! Shoot the Dog!

All over one page!

This may seem like the dumbest thing to get upset about, but I have abandonment issues. When Cobra says she'll call me one day, then doesn't, I worry. I think something happened to her. But then I find out she's okay and I'm happy.

I think I have some of, my dad's depression... I know I have OCD like him, and my brother and I share his perfectionism. Do I sound bipolar to you guys?!

*slaps self* My life has completely stopped in it's tracks. I can't move on or anything!...


There's this one guy in my dad's class and I can't remember if he's Jewish or Christian, but do you know what he said? He doesn't thing homosexual males should be teachers because he doesn't want them teaching his children it's okay to be gay. What a jackass! He almost got expelled for it, but they let him stay. Dammit! And the best part is, he probably is gay. He's very feminine. I'd love to meet him, just once, so I can yell at him.